my charm

Well one more week of school left, and even though this year was not really as good as last, I will still miss it. I've met some new people this year and gotten to know some better, which is good. I'm going to be kinda sad when it ends, like I am every year, but oh well, next year will come soon and then I'll have to do all the dumb work again, lol. The guy named Dave from the last entry I am going out w/now and the relationship has gotten very close in just one week. It's kinda weird, but I don't mind it at all, I like being close to someone, especially a guy that I can really love. It just makes me feel good inside, I guess.. Somethin' like that. Love is a really big and serious thing, so it can be scary too. It's hard when you lose that person and you feel like nothing all over again, but hopefully that won't happen and if the day should come that me and Dave do have to go our separate ways I hope we never really lose each other, and that we can always know that we care about each other deeply still. I'm not really sure what he thinks about our relationship, but what he's told me so far is that he's very happy w/me and feels he's connected emotionally w/me, which I like a lot, hehe. Sometimes looking at myself I don't know what makes people like me so much, but I guess I have a certain charm they like. I have a silliness and innocence to me, too, I think. Maybe that's what some people like. Only a few people know my charm, but the rest lay in complete blindness to my wonderfulness and think I'm a nerd or a bitch and that's just not true! I'm just mellow and anti-social, but I'm getting better. The reason I'm writing all this is to try and express my thoughts in words and organize them, but I'm not sure if it's working. Hope I don't come out looking concieted or sumthing, but oh well. Guess I'll be going now. Finish working on getting pics for my smoking presentation.. bye...