screwed over

I've been busy updating my gothic dark thoughts site, uploading pics and such. I want to do a good job on it. I'm sucking at typing lately, too many typos.

Today I went over to Dave's and we were both very tempted to have sex but we knew we couldn't cuz he had a gf and I kept saying stupid shit, half jokingly, like "u know ur going to have sex w/me again eventually anyway" and "u can just break up w/her, i'm better anyway" or whatever. Ha, she won't last i know it. She's too self absorbed in her own misery or whatever. "Oh god, I'm going to kill myself at any moment, I'm that fucking unstable!" Yeah right, what a bitch. Go kill urself, I don't give a fuck. haha. But I'm just mean.

Listeing to vampirefreaks radio right now. Lucifer's Garden is playing by Evils Toy.

I miss Dave, but I'm glad we didn't do anything. I don't need that shit again.

I started on my essay on Crime and Punishment tonight. I'm almost half way thru the book. Still have to buy Pride and Prejudice... I'll get it done I guess.

Mrs. Drydyk called and told me how our school is screwing over art department, as expected by all of us, this year. It sucks. We won't get our schedules til the first day prolly, what shit.

Ruby, Andy, and I are supposed to be going to that festival tomorrow evening. The only real reason I'm going is b/c I keep hearing how these goths go, but hey, even if I see any, I prolly won't even talk to them b/c I'm so pathetic. But who knows, maybe I will have fun. I just wish they'd approach me for once.