WEBN fireworks

Well I ended up going to the fireworks w/my cousin Steph., her parents, and her friend Natalie(she was pretty cool). It was fun and I loved the fireworks. We were right under them, on the rocks by the river, and they were so beautiful. I loved all the colorful ones they had, and the rocket looking ones that went up in the air, then back down a lil', and then back up again. WEBN rocks! I'm going to their haunted house when it opens, too. Once there, I learned Mike went, too, but he was on the Ohio side and we were on the KY. I hope Ruby had a good time, too. I didn't even eat while there, cuz there were lines so the last time I had eaten was 1:00 yesterday. We tried to get fast food after, but lines were too long also, and we left and went back to Steph.'s place and my mom picked me up at 11:30, we got Wendy's, and went home.

Doug stopped by to check his e-mail, I'm glad he's gone and outta here finally.

Yesterday when I was over at Steph.'s before the fireworks I couldn't help thinking about Alex when they were messing around w/the Jupebox songs. (Her dad got one somewhere.) I could see me and him having a good time togehter. I'm still undecisive about what I want though. I still love Dave, but I suppose I can just move on for right now anyway, and when and if Dave's ever ready to come back to me, then he should be able to. I just hope he wouldn't want to when I'm going out w/Alex, if I decide to do that.

I actually thought about Mike, too, and what it would be like to go out w/him. It would be weird, though, but ya never know. I can see myself hanging out in his bedroom, it's pretty cool, I guess, even though he has all those stupid model posters on his wall and porno mags everywhere, haha. I can live w/that. We could have sex all the time, too, since he wouldn't mind that like Dave did. Haha, but oh well, Dave was still a good sport. I have these fantasies in my head about just doing Mike and Alex, each every other day, lmao, but I don't think I could ever do that. I have many fantasies in my head, in which I don't ever plan to act on, although I think would be fun.

Disregard all this nonsense you've just read.