love and sex

Man, I'm so fucked up w/this thing about Adam! I don't really want him and to do it w/him would be meaningless sex that I don't think I could force myself to do. It shouldn't be about forcing anyway. I really want Alex. I talked to him today, barely, but it doesn't seem like he would ever want to get w/me. He got his hair shaved too, I think it looks weird cuz I liked it before, but oh well, it will grow out again. But then he'll have to leave... Mike said he has a gf now too, and Dave said it was true, but he doesn't know what she looks like, Dave that is, so I don't know if Mike really does or not. How dare he and he tried to shove it in my face too. He soooo does not care about me anymore. This sucks. My love life SUCKS!!!!

Oh yeah, Hot Topic has some really cool Halloween 2001 stuff on their online store right now, so check it out. The link is on my side bar if u didn't already know. They have cool $85 black angel wings, too. Wish I had the money to spend on them.. They have lovely corsets, too, that I need really badly! Oh well, some day...