i only hate

Just read Chris's nice lil' entry about me. I wanted to say so much to that, but I only wanted it to be on the tagboard, I didn't want to write him an email, so I just said the basics. He makes me feel like shit, everytime he opens his mouth about me. He thinks I'm so fucking selfish and on a power-trip when all I feel is anger inside and if people left me alone, they wouldn't have to deal w/it. But no, he goes on and on, keeps bringing the subject up and dragging it out, and this is why I hate him so much. I want to beat his head into a cement wall, I want him to never exist. HE was the one that fucked everything up, IT WAS NEVER MY CHOICE! Fuck him for how nieve he is. He knows jack shit! I want him to never have known Dave and I remember now how it happened, it was Dave in the first place. Just figures. Everything gets fucked up. I should wish for my own non-existence, I'M THE ONE WHO OBVIOUSLY FUCKS EVERYTHING UP! AND WHAT WOULD U DO IF I KILLED MYSELF, CHRIS?? WOULD U CRY? DON'T U EVER FUCKING LOVE ME, U PATHETIC ASSHOLE. U DON'T EVEN KNOW ME!